Noun: a modest or low view of one’s own importance; humbleness.
Verb: lower (someone) in dignity or imporance
Apparently the universe felt as if I was not humble enough. So it, the universe, decided to fix that. By the looks of things I had no humility in any part of my life since I seem to be getting a good dose of it in EVERY sector. As a mom, a wife, a friend, a worker, a person….a big old dose of HUMBLE pie has been served up to me. In some cases I’ve gotten multiple servings. You name it- I am bad at it. My bad day went to a bad week; which dragged on to a bad month and is now creating a bad season. One hit right after another. Some of them I have been armed for but most of them have been surprise attacks that have hit me squarely between the eyes. “Didn’t see that one coming,” I said about the first few zingers. “That’s going to leave a mark,” I’ve thought about the really big ones. “Really?!?” has become a motto. That looking for an A+ moments in an F kind of day attitude that I started my year off with has become harder and harder to do. I keep trying. Or rather I know I should keep trying. To be honest, trying to be positive takes a little more effort then I have left at the end of the day. All I can seem to do is plug along, take things as they come and deal with things one at a time. Along the way I try and learn by my mistakes and admit to myself the things I’ve been wrong about. It is what it is. Sometimes that is all you can say. That and a few 4 letter words.
Can’t even get this to post correctly. Guess that it’s just in case there was a shred of my ego left.